I’m shifting my focus away from rehabilitation of migraines and chronic headaches, and toward retraining my brain from years of trauma. But I’m not giving up on a migraine-free existence. For now I’m rediscovering and tackling that which led me to chronic pain – putting the puzzle pieces together regarding the cause(s) of anxiety, insecurity and fear of judgement. By doing so – along with meditation, Neurofeedback, lucid dreaming, nutrition and movement – I trust that the headaches will dissipate on their own.
Maybe one day I’ll go into all the fun details of my past (an absent bio-dad and alcoholic step-dad, inappropriately touched at a young age, which led to an early preoccupation with sex, invalidation of fears and voluntary ignorance of anxiety and emotional needs, manipulative friends, and impulsivity which led to violence, infidelity and irrational jealousy, and finally guilt and shame), even if doing so hurts others. I’ve buried my authentic self long enough in order to people please, and probably also out of fear of embarrassing myself (let’s be real), and it’s only led to pain and suffering.
Curious what NeurOptimal does? According to their website:
NeurOptimal® monitors your brainwaves and alerts your central nervous system when it is not functioning smoothly.
When brain activity shows signs of turbulence, the music within the NeurOptimal®neurofeedback software is momentarily interrupted. This subtle cue alerts your brain that it is operating inefficiently. With repeated training sessions, the brain learns to “reset” itself and function more smoothly. All of this learning is non-invasive and happens outside your conscious awareness. Over time, NeurOptimal® adjusts itself automatically in response to your brain’s activity, individualizing the training microsecond by microsecond to your own brain’s functioning.
Sound simple? That’s because it is simple. The true complexity of the neurofeedback training is embedded in the NeurOptimal® software.
Just think of NeurOptimal® as an Olympic gymnastics coach or yoga instructor. Like a human teacher, the neurofeedback machine points out and corrects your form as you train. As you get better, the level of brain training difficulty increases automatically. With practice, your brain fitness (i.e. brain flexibility and resilience) naturally improves and becomes more natural and efficient. As a result of the training, you can maintain a healthy brain and become more effective in your personal and professional life.